I wrote this on Feb. 16, 2010 @ 8:04 a.m., posted it, then took it down out of shame and embarrassment. I'm not sure if I should post this, but I will post it anyway. Before you read know that I am just like any other human being. I'm no superhuman nor am I some sort of "holier than thou", because to be quite frank I am faaaaar from it. Jesus Redeems. Amen!
:o)
Good morning, good evening, good night. Today is February 16, 2010. Hopefully I'll be able to publish this today. I woke up and I felt like blogging about my life. I really have no set topic to write about, I'm just gonna go with the flow.
I was scheduled to graduate December 2008. I managed to get my degree in 3 1/2 years. I thought "Wow, what an accomplishment". Little did I know what the coming months would bring.On September 18, 2008 I lost a family friend of mine in a car accident. Her name was Kimone Anderson, a budding gospel singer. She had a beautiful heart. Unfortunately, I never really took the time out to enjoy her the way sisters in Christ should enjoy each other. Prior to her passing, we had a conversation. It was a conversation that i thought was the beginning of a great relationship. We talked mostly about school, future plans, and pressure from friends and family to be successful. Like myself, she too was scheduled to graduate December 2008. We had exchanged numbers that day (I never had her phone number). We said would would "talk" later--we never got to talk.
I remember that last semester like it was yesterday. I was working, volunteering, taking my last 3 classes and trying to cope with her death all in one breath. It was difficult. There were weeks where I didn't go to class or volunteering at all. I cried myself to sleep most nights. Not because I lost a friendship, but because I realized how fragile life was. I realized that nobody was exempt from that appointment with death. Death scared me. I never talked about it, I never dealt with it head on, I avoided it. It was a reality check.
Unfortunately, I didn't cope well. I screwed up my grades, which later cost me to not graduated with honors (by .01 pts) I began to get a bit boy crazy. I stopped going to church, all in the name of "work & $$"--which looking back was not worth it at all. As a result my faith in Jesus was low. I didn't pray, I didn't go to church. I had a bunch of jumbled and confused feelings inside me.--I should have prayed, I should have talked.
By Jan 09' the realities hit me. I had no real job, no $$, and no plans. Unfortunately, i forfeited graduate school. I was not only scared I wasn't going to get in, but I admit I was too lazy to do the work it entailed.--I should have worked. I should have not doubted God.
I was delusional. I claimed that I was "studying" for the GRE--Grad school version of the SAT. That same month, I met a guy named..well, let me not put him out there. We met at a social gathering that I should not have gone to in the first place.--I should have listened to God speaking. I should have acknowledged Him tugging on my heartstrings--i didn't.
At the time "HE" began to become my everything. Not because I loved him. Not because I wanted a boyfriend. It was because I was searching for a way to cope. It sounds silly, but it is not uncommon, unfortunately. If ONLY i had only clung to God. IF ONLY. "HE" and I ended up doing some things we should not have doing. It threw me into a whole other whirlwind of guilt and shame. Not only did I not have plans for my future, but I had sinned against my body, something I gave to God. I was redeemed. All redemption was lost within a few months.(in my eyes of course, but praise God for the redemptive blood of Jesus!)
I was living in "sin" for approximately 3 1/2 months. Each time I was done with the deed i cried my eyes and heart out. It didn't feel good. I wasn't happy. I soon was beginning to realize that I needed to start praying. I had gone so deep in my carnal pleasures that even when I would pray and repent, I STILL went back to my vomit, like a dog. I tried to fight it, but I couldn't.
To combat, I did the unthinkable: I told my mother. Immediately she snatched me away from Gainesville, FL. I told her that Thursday, I was home by that Saturday. I guess it was for the better. It definitely stopped me from sinning against my body and God.
I thought everything would be alright. I was home now. Safe. I was wrong. I was so hung on to this man, that he still had control over me even 6 hours away from me. To retaliate, I almost immediately got involved with another guy--dumb move. The guy was hardly worth my time.
Finally, I had enough. Enough of the guilt and shame. I dropped them all. I was on my way. I was praying, in spite of the fact I was home and miserable--forgot to add that part. I was reading my bible. I was getting involved with fellow Christians.
Since then, it has been a roller coaster. Now that my carnal pleasures no longer had control over me, the devil came with something else: Frustration. Frustration with not being able to find a job. Frustration with my parents who were pressuring me to find a job in this slumped economy. I eventually found a job--a Mickey mouse job, but a job nonetheless. It could hardly suffice, but God is good.
Today, I'm still struggling on this path. I have a plan now, but I still have no real money to carry it out, but I have given up. I have given God the car keys. When Jesus was on His 40 day fast, satan temped him saying "If you are the Son of God, turn these stones into bread". Jesus answered him saying "Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God". Today I have faith. I cling to the word of God because that is the only thing that will last forever. I faith, not that God will give me what I ask for, but that God will provide what I need. Anything that He has given me is enough. I can not question the Most High. He knows best. His word says "...suffering produces perseverance; perseverance character and character, hope. hope does not disappoint us...." So today I have a new hope.
What is the point of outpouring today: To inspire and to bless someone with my story. In life there will be growing pains. Just like gold, we must go through fire to become refined. The word of God says...."I forget the things of the pass and looked to the things which are before me..I press toward the mark of the high calling which is in Christ Jesus" Forget your past, and press for Jesus. In everything you do, work on, or go through, know that it is only to further advance the kingdom of God and to give the Most High GLORY. Don't yield to carnal thinking. Close your carnal eyes and open the eyes of your heart. Things will make much more sense. Believe it or not God has blessed you beyond measure! He has blessed you with His son (a second chance), His grace, mercy and love. To live this life, it will suffice. Spiritual triumphs and blessings are the best and the most important. Don't let the things of this world be a distraction. Press forth toward Jesus. Don't doubt Him.
Peace and Love
Jay
**Love God, Love People**
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
I got a Man yall!! --A Facebook Note by Jay :)
SIKE! Nosies! ;)
So the spirit of writing and transparency decided to take me tonight. Weird. Especially for Facebook. This will be quick! I promise!
So let's get to the point of this note. So lately, I have been talking to one of my friends quite often. Of course like every girl talk, it always relationships. Since, my interest has been "rekindled"--well, not really. I've just been thinking about marriage more because of the convos I’ve been having and all this cliché talk of relationships. Of course this would happen well after I’ve come to the point where the thought never crosses my mind--maybe it's because I'm being distracted by other things or maybe Jesus has really has changed my thinking. (Can I get a AMEN! FREEDOM!)
Truly, I don't want to concentrate too much on relationships, dating, and marriage; they're too much of a headache. I mean, it's just something I don't even want to deal with right now.
Ok, so apart from the fact that I vehemently disdain the thought of a relationship right now--yea, it’s that serious--there are other reasons why I'm just not interested.
#1 I'm not the best me I can be. I have YET to solidify the relationship I have with Christ. The simple answer: I'm not whole, I'm not completely ONE with Christ.
The best me is the “me” who’s married to Christ; who has a solid spiritual foundation. I’m workin’ to be the Proverbs 31, married or NOT!
#2 --> 1 Cor. 7:32-35 (Msg) excerpt "...When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master. Marriage involves you in all the nuts and bolts of domestic life and in wanting to please your spouse, leading to so many more demands on your attention..."
Did you read that the FIRST time...ok just in case you didn't....go read it AGAIN.....
Ok, now that you have re-read it, there's my scriptural defense. lol.
The Word does not lie. It's true, when you're married your attention is divided. Furthermore, your kingdom business has extended (more work). More work? Yes, more work. You have to WORK to SERVE your husband or wife. It really isn’t all peaches n crème. I’m glad I recognize that fact. Oh and let me not forget about the beginning of the excerpt:
“When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master”
Man, pleasing Abba is my ultimate desire and if pleasing Him requires that I completely abandon my desire to be married with children, then so let it be!-- Freedom is A-MAZIN’!
Now, by no means am I saying that I am against marriage. God BLESS all of you who are happily married or about to be married. May you be that powerhouse couple that God has called you both to be! I'm just saying that kind of responsibility is not for me right now. I’m ‘bout dat otha kingdom business. :)
For the first time I can say that I am truly enjoying my singleness.
Selah!
**Let those with eyes see and with ears hear**
So the spirit of writing and transparency decided to take me tonight. Weird. Especially for Facebook. This will be quick! I promise!
So let's get to the point of this note. So lately, I have been talking to one of my friends quite often. Of course like every girl talk, it always relationships. Since, my interest has been "rekindled"--well, not really. I've just been thinking about marriage more because of the convos I’ve been having and all this cliché talk of relationships. Of course this would happen well after I’ve come to the point where the thought never crosses my mind--maybe it's because I'm being distracted by other things or maybe Jesus has really has changed my thinking. (Can I get a AMEN! FREEDOM!)
Truly, I don't want to concentrate too much on relationships, dating, and marriage; they're too much of a headache. I mean, it's just something I don't even want to deal with right now.
Ok, so apart from the fact that I vehemently disdain the thought of a relationship right now--yea, it’s that serious--there are other reasons why I'm just not interested.
#1 I'm not the best me I can be. I have YET to solidify the relationship I have with Christ. The simple answer: I'm not whole, I'm not completely ONE with Christ.
The best me is the “me” who’s married to Christ; who has a solid spiritual foundation. I’m workin’ to be the Proverbs 31, married or NOT!
#2 --> 1 Cor. 7:32-35 (Msg) excerpt "...When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master. Marriage involves you in all the nuts and bolts of domestic life and in wanting to please your spouse, leading to so many more demands on your attention..."
Did you read that the FIRST time...ok just in case you didn't....go read it AGAIN.....
Ok, now that you have re-read it, there's my scriptural defense. lol.
The Word does not lie. It's true, when you're married your attention is divided. Furthermore, your kingdom business has extended (more work). More work? Yes, more work. You have to WORK to SERVE your husband or wife. It really isn’t all peaches n crème. I’m glad I recognize that fact. Oh and let me not forget about the beginning of the excerpt:
“When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master”
Man, pleasing Abba is my ultimate desire and if pleasing Him requires that I completely abandon my desire to be married with children, then so let it be!-- Freedom is A-MAZIN’!
Now, by no means am I saying that I am against marriage. God BLESS all of you who are happily married or about to be married. May you be that powerhouse couple that God has called you both to be! I'm just saying that kind of responsibility is not for me right now. I’m ‘bout dat otha kingdom business. :)
For the first time I can say that I am truly enjoying my singleness.
Selah!
**Let those with eyes see and with ears hear**
Is it just me....friends: what do you think?
Lately, I've been really thinking. Thinking about how much people really annoy me. Granted, I annoy people on a daily basis I'm sure, but you know how that goes; you really don't care about your actions, but rather others' actions. Hypocrisy at it's most overt and covert moment simultaneously existing.
Whatever, here's my vent/rant time!
I have lots of "friends", "associates", whatever: people I know and people who know me. To be quite frank, sometimes I can delete some of them out my life and start all over again. Why? Because they say some pretty questionable below-the-belt sort of things. For example, I was talking to one of my "friends" recently. We've been friends since our freshman year in college (2005)--we've known each other for a little while now. You know what this good-for-nothing guy said to me as I was talking about my life issues??--He had the NERVE to say, "Yea, yea Jay, like your problems are worse than everyone elses." When I heard that I was like, "I know this insensitive....I know this boy ain't just try me like that!!"
Later on this week I saw a facebook status from another friend. She said something along the lines of, "not everyone who is WITH you is FOR you" and it got me thinkin'....granted, this has always been my motto for friends and life but it still made me question some of my friendships and how ** I ** feel about them. Am I being real when something good happens to them? Am I bad mouthing them right after I talk to them? Do I really care about this person? Then I thought, what about others? Then I looked at it from another perspective: Are my friend really happy for me when something good happens to me? Are they bad mouthing me when we finish talking? Do they care about me?? Hmmm....
I have another friend she can be very...stuck up...wait a better colloquial term, "acting brand new", lol. In this "stuck upness", lol, she has a tendency to act like she has money, when she really doesn't. Truly if she did, she wouldn't have to take out student loans. If she did, she'd be driving a fully functional car (which she's not)...But I digress.. Back to the story: Before, I didn't notice it until she herself pointed it out, lol. Ironic, right? After a while it started to annoy me and me a my rude self never passes up an opportunity to pass a slick remark her way, lol. Anyway, I was talking to her today; she was talking about having a pricey dinner party, that in my opinion she can't afford, but who am I to metal in someones financial business?? lol. I'm Jay, and imma metal in it anyway :)So anyway I said something slick, something like, "I hope you big ballin'" (Translation: I hope you have the money) and she said something along the lines of "your just jealous because...." her tone was a bit facetious, but her message intended sure got across...surely ya' girl wasn't gonna let that pass and I responded "I'm sorry I don't spend money I don't have like you do ;)" Yes, not exactly the most Christ-like thing to say, but sometimes I just can't help it. The point: It's annoying, and I am I truly her friend? I mean, I'm not jealous--actually I'm nowhere near jealous, I'm more intelligent and more witty--money doesn't define my identity. period. I mean love her to death, if anything were to happen to her there is no doubt in my mind that I'd be balling my poor eyes out. But sometimes I just wonder.
Maybe it's just me. I guess I'm just thinking about all this stuff because I have waay too much time on my hands or not enough time on my hands to form new friendships to distract me from thinking about it.
Well, there's my rant. Uncensored.
~Jay
Whatever, here's my vent/rant time!
I have lots of "friends", "associates", whatever: people I know and people who know me. To be quite frank, sometimes I can delete some of them out my life and start all over again. Why? Because they say some pretty questionable below-the-belt sort of things. For example, I was talking to one of my "friends" recently. We've been friends since our freshman year in college (2005)--we've known each other for a little while now. You know what this good-for-nothing guy said to me as I was talking about my life issues??--He had the NERVE to say, "Yea, yea Jay, like your problems are worse than everyone elses." When I heard that I was like, "I know this insensitive....I know this boy ain't just try me like that!!"
Later on this week I saw a facebook status from another friend. She said something along the lines of, "not everyone who is WITH you is FOR you" and it got me thinkin'....granted, this has always been my motto for friends and life but it still made me question some of my friendships and how ** I ** feel about them. Am I being real when something good happens to them? Am I bad mouthing them right after I talk to them? Do I really care about this person? Then I thought, what about others? Then I looked at it from another perspective: Are my friend really happy for me when something good happens to me? Are they bad mouthing me when we finish talking? Do they care about me?? Hmmm....
I have another friend she can be very...stuck up...wait a better colloquial term, "acting brand new", lol. In this "stuck upness", lol, she has a tendency to act like she has money, when she really doesn't. Truly if she did, she wouldn't have to take out student loans. If she did, she'd be driving a fully functional car (which she's not)...But I digress.. Back to the story: Before, I didn't notice it until she herself pointed it out, lol. Ironic, right? After a while it started to annoy me and me a my rude self never passes up an opportunity to pass a slick remark her way, lol. Anyway, I was talking to her today; she was talking about having a pricey dinner party, that in my opinion she can't afford, but who am I to metal in someones financial business?? lol. I'm Jay, and imma metal in it anyway :)So anyway I said something slick, something like, "I hope you big ballin'" (Translation: I hope you have the money) and she said something along the lines of "your just jealous because...." her tone was a bit facetious, but her message intended sure got across...surely ya' girl wasn't gonna let that pass and I responded "I'm sorry I don't spend money I don't have like you do ;)" Yes, not exactly the most Christ-like thing to say, but sometimes I just can't help it. The point: It's annoying, and I am I truly her friend? I mean, I'm not jealous--actually I'm nowhere near jealous, I'm more intelligent and more witty--money doesn't define my identity. period. I mean love her to death, if anything were to happen to her there is no doubt in my mind that I'd be balling my poor eyes out. But sometimes I just wonder.
Maybe it's just me. I guess I'm just thinking about all this stuff because I have waay too much time on my hands or not enough time on my hands to form new friendships to distract me from thinking about it.
Well, there's my rant. Uncensored.
~Jay
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
The God-Sent Brush!
Wow! This brush is A-mazing! I detangled my full head of hair in 15 mins!I got it at my local Sally's Beauty Supply for around $10. At first I was like, I can't pay this much for a BRUSH! But let me tell you, it is one the best investments of my natural hair journey! <3 check it out! you can get it on Amazon.com for between $8-$20.
Here's a link: http://www.amazon.com/gp/offer-listing/B00197623M/ref=dp_olp_new?ie=UTF8&condition=new
Chao!
~Jay
A blog about my hair and other randoms... :)
Ok, so I haven't blogged in a while. Been on my YT-tip (watching youtube). So I was going through one of my bloggers vids on youtube and she kind of inspired me to blog, well, blog more often than I do.
Anyway, let's talk about hair. So, as many of you may know I am an African American with Afro-textered hair--no chemical relaxing. :) I love my hair, BUT I don't know how to manage it, AT ALL. :( I'm thinking of weaving it out for the next few months. The problem is, I'm too lazy to do it and I can't afford to pay anyone else to do it. :( But you know what, it's all good. I've been learning some quick-weaves from the YT. Im just about ready to jump on the bandwagon, lol! Of course using my younger is as the guinea pig :) Yay for little sisters! :) So yea, I think I really like blogging. I really do. I don't know how I feel about people "following" me. Lol, but whatever. Right now this blog is for my enjoyment. :)
Random!
So, here's the deal, I would LOVE to do video blogs; however, I have no camera. Yea, sry. I'm still in the "chee-chee, click, click era" aka disposable cameras. lol. But no worries, I will invest in one as soon as I get this promotion at work OR start working as a Sub-Teacher. :) Yay! Praise Jesus!
haha, my kitten is sitting in my lap right now and she's is totally intrigued by my typing motions lol! She's even trying to type! lololol! Gotta love my kitty. Pix to come! :)
Random 2!
Currently I'm reading a book called "The New World Order" By Pat Robertson. As the title implies it is no surprise that it's about the conspiracy theory. What I like about the book so far is that it looks at the conspiracy theory from a biblical perspective. I'm about 1/3 into in the book, but here's the problem: I can't find the darn book! ugh! I lost it :( Somewhere between work and home. No worries. Today is my clean up day and hopefully, I'll find it! :O).
Well, it's almost 2:30 am. I should have been asleep since 12 am. It's ok though, I blogged therefore I'm happy! :) So yea, I'll try to blog about more things going on in my life; although, my life isn't all that interesting, but whatever. This thing is for me, right? Yea. Awesomeness!
O.K., I'm DONE! :)
Be blessed! :)
P.S. Jesus is awesome!
Anyway, let's talk about hair. So, as many of you may know I am an African American with Afro-textered hair--no chemical relaxing. :) I love my hair, BUT I don't know how to manage it, AT ALL. :( I'm thinking of weaving it out for the next few months. The problem is, I'm too lazy to do it and I can't afford to pay anyone else to do it. :( But you know what, it's all good. I've been learning some quick-weaves from the YT. Im just about ready to jump on the bandwagon, lol! Of course using my younger is as the guinea pig :) Yay for little sisters! :) So yea, I think I really like blogging. I really do. I don't know how I feel about people "following" me. Lol, but whatever. Right now this blog is for my enjoyment. :)
Random!
So, here's the deal, I would LOVE to do video blogs; however, I have no camera. Yea, sry. I'm still in the "chee-chee, click, click era" aka disposable cameras. lol. But no worries, I will invest in one as soon as I get this promotion at work OR start working as a Sub-Teacher. :) Yay! Praise Jesus!
haha, my kitten is sitting in my lap right now and she's is totally intrigued by my typing motions lol! She's even trying to type! lololol! Gotta love my kitty. Pix to come! :)
Random 2!
Currently I'm reading a book called "The New World Order" By Pat Robertson. As the title implies it is no surprise that it's about the conspiracy theory. What I like about the book so far is that it looks at the conspiracy theory from a biblical perspective. I'm about 1/3 into in the book, but here's the problem: I can't find the darn book! ugh! I lost it :( Somewhere between work and home. No worries. Today is my clean up day and hopefully, I'll find it! :O).
Well, it's almost 2:30 am. I should have been asleep since 12 am. It's ok though, I blogged therefore I'm happy! :) So yea, I'll try to blog about more things going on in my life; although, my life isn't all that interesting, but whatever. This thing is for me, right? Yea. Awesomeness!
O.K., I'm DONE! :)
Be blessed! :)
P.S. Jesus is awesome!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Gimme Dat
I like this song. It's so hype! Lyrics below! ;)
(AMBA!)
Gimme dat bible
Gimme dat mic
I'll drop Jesus any way so he can make a disciple
Can't surpass Christ there's no takin' his title
A passion for Christ I'll have you prayin' for revival
Gimma my city, yeah
Gimme dat, let's fish
Gospel of peace, yeah
You can give me dat fresh kicks
Gimme dat
Vest with your blessin' Lord I'm desperate
You gave me your life
So I look forward to my exit
I used to be a punk-kid
Use to wanna run with
Dudes dat wanna hunt that
Turned our ones into hundreds
Used to run the blunt to be blunt
I wanted trees just to alter my mind
Now I find out more in Jesus
Used to run and roll mad deep with a street clique
Corner holdin' heat on the low like a secret
God's spirit penetrated my soul on a sneak tip
Took control now I'm in his floor like a leaflet
I know you got riches
I know you got ice
Your life is a big party
You're partyin' all night
You don't mind not knowin' Christ
In your mind dat's alright
You might not get this now
But you're kind of a Saul type
You keep with the trends
Cool's your middle name
On your pants you got a chain
That droops like Lil' Wayne
You're tattooed in a Benz
Maybe you're in a Range
Ladies, you drivin' crazy
Nothin crazier than your frame
(This is a shame)
It's the age and I'm game
To be an agent of change
In an age that's like a page in a flame
Just smoke, just mirrors, just vapor is plain
You see, a Holy God is not one of you favorite things
I was just like you,
But God moved on a fellow
Gave me good news
Dat I could use on the ghetto
Maybe it's you who wants to
U turn to settle
You're dead if you do
I'll tell you it's been settled
So you got platinum?
We got our Lord
If we want, we could ask him
But he's our reward
Gotta be perfect
It can't be three out of four
If you're sick of fallin' short
Then he's got a cure
Gimme dat cure, dat door, dat hero
Gimme dat grace dat never chased the dinero
How much glory should you give your boy? Zero
That would cause beef with the Lamb like a Gyro
Gimme dat day reaches you over shinin'
Truth over rhymin'
Virtue over diamonds
Gimme some change
Sometimes I do need the dough
Gimme some pain
Somethin' -- I do need to grow
Gimme what I won't ask for
Don't gimme what I seek
When i creep, I'm a sheep
Gimme your pasture
Gimme life
Just like you intended
It's like to see you raise the day you ascended
Yeah, this is just to let cats know
Don't focus on what you can't have
Get all you can have
We call dat freedom
Dat's the joy of God
And his poeple
In his world
On his terms
SHOUTOUT TO PASTOR E!
Yeah
Gimme dat, gimme dat, gimme dat
I want it all, I want it all
Gimme dat
It's your boy Ambassador
(AMBA!)
Gimme dat fire (fire)
Gimme dat flame (flame, flame)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Absolutely you can gimme dat
If it's mine (gimme dat)
It's good for me (gimme dat)
I want it all
Gimme dat bible
Gimme dat mic
I'll drop Jesus any way so he can make a disciple
Can't surpass Christ there's no takin' his title
A passion for Christ I'll have you prayin' for revival
Gimma my city, yeah
Gimme dat, let's fish
Gospel of peace, yeah
You can give me dat fresh kicks
Gimme dat
Vest with your blessin' Lord I'm desperate
You gave me your life
So I look forward to my exit
I used to be a punk-kid
Use to wanna run with
Dudes dat wanna hunt that
Turned our ones into hundreds
Used to run the blunt to be blunt
I wanted trees just to alter my mind
Now I find out more in Jesus
Used to run and roll mad deep with a street clique
Corner holdin' heat on the low like a secret
God's spirit penetrated my soul on a sneak tip
Took control now I'm in his floor like a leaflet
Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
I know you got riches
I know you got ice
Your life is a big party
You're partyin' all night
You don't mind not knowin' Christ
In your mind dat's alright
You might not get this now
But you're kind of a Saul type
You keep with the trends
Cool's your middle name
On your pants you got a chain
That droops like Lil' Wayne
You're tattooed in a Benz
Maybe you're in a Range
Ladies, you drivin' crazy
Nothin crazier than your frame
(This is a shame)
It's the age and I'm game
To be an agent of change
In an age that's like a page in a flame
Just smoke, just mirrors, just vapor is plain
You see, a Holy God is not one of you favorite things
I was just like you,
But God moved on a fellow
Gave me good news
Dat I could use on the ghetto
Maybe it's you who wants to
U turn to settle
You're dead if you do
I'll tell you it's been settled
Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
So you got platinum?
We got our Lord
If we want, we could ask him
But he's our reward
Gotta be perfect
It can't be three out of four
If you're sick of fallin' short
Then he's got a cure
Gimme dat cure, dat door, dat hero
Gimme dat grace dat never chased the dinero
How much glory should you give your boy? Zero
That would cause beef with the Lamb like a Gyro
Gimme dat day reaches you over shinin'
Truth over rhymin'
Virtue over diamonds
Gimme some change
Sometimes I do need the dough
Gimme some pain
Somethin' -- I do need to grow
Gimme what I won't ask for
Don't gimme what I seek
When i creep, I'm a sheep
Gimme your pasture
Gimme life
Just like you intended
It's like to see you raise the day you ascended
Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things
Yeah, this is just to let cats know
Don't focus on what you can't have
Get all you can have
We call dat freedom
Dat's the joy of God
And his poeple
In his world
On his terms
SHOUTOUT TO PASTOR E!
Yeah
Gimme dat, gimme dat, gimme dat
I want it all, I want it all
Gimme dat
It's your boy Ambassador
This bible verse means to me that....
This bible means to me that...????? [Crickets..] That what? Really? I'm not trying to be facetious or mean or anything, but I always thought that the books of the bible had one meaning and one meaning only. I'm pretty sure there was a who, what when, where, and why. The author wrote with some intention, to some audience.
This brings me to the topic of this entry. BIBLE STUDY. So, yesterday I was reading one of the blogs I follow by Be like the Bereans (I think that's the name). It was about how we should study the bible. And when we do, we need to understand the Who, What, When, Where and Why of the particular book. Furthermore we should read 20 verses before and after a particular verse to get some sort of context to get the true and original meaning. So basically this is the point: we we can't take some random scripture, isolate it and superimpose our opinions on it. All jokes aside, it's heresy. Like, period. If you take a scripture and u strip it of it original meaning and then share your opinion of it with someone, you've almost given someone a gospel with holes in it. It's dangerous.
Can you imagine if someone came to you and told you that scriptures about Jesus's life meant to them that Jesus was just a good person, and not God in full? And they thought that good works would get you into heaven??? The scripture is clear; moralism doesn't get you to heaven. (Titus 3:5) Jesus is God in full (Collossians 1:15-18) This "Doctrine of Opinion"--haha-- would send you straight to hell. Do you see where superimposing your opinions and detaching the original meaning becomes dangerous?
And let's not forget how us Christians like to get all mystical and googoo gahgah when it comes to the Word. You know how it go, like when you wanna hear a "word" from God you just open the bible to a RANDOM part of the bible and read ONE scripture and call it your "word" from God. LOL. Don't feel bad, I'm guilty of it too. And I'm also guilty of that "what this scripture means to me is..." too. We can't do that. We've got to look at the verses before and after. This is an important principle that seems so elementary, but yet, is always missed for some reason.
Solution? When you read the bible be sure that u understand the who, what, when, where and why. At the very least, read the 20 preceding and post verses to get some context. A meaning does exist. And it is very much so RELEVENT to today. Culture and traditions may change, but the human heart and condition doesn't. The bible was put together with a purpose. Each book, each author, each verse had an intent, a purpose. It's the original meaning. Now this doesn't mean we can't make it applicable to our specific circumstances, neither does it mean that God's Word speaks to all of in the same way. Of course God's Word has some meaning within our life context, but again the original message is still present. King Solomon says there is nothing new under the sun (Ecclesiastes 1:9) That's pretty straight forward. Whatever you have gone through, seen or are going though has been done or seen already. I think the bible does a pretty good job of covering these general areas. It covers romance, marriage, relationships, money, faith, persecution, Christian Doctrine, end times ummm...anything that is related to the human experience believe me, it's there. Check out The book of Psalsms, The book of Proverbs, Romans, Collossians, Song of Solomon, Ecclesiastes, ummm...Job, Daniel. They were all written with purpose and inspired by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12-13; 2 Timothy 3:16-17)
So I hope this didn't come out as some random rant with no purpose. I pray that you'll take this info and make some changes if you need to. Below I posted a video that probably explains this topic a lot better than I can. Enjoy!
This brings me to the topic of this entry. BIBLE STUDY. So, yesterday I was reading one of the blogs I follow by Be like the Bereans (I think that's the name). It was about how we should study the bible. And when we do, we need to understand the Who, What, When, Where and Why of the particular book. Furthermore we should read 20 verses before and after a particular verse to get some sort of context to get the true and original meaning. So basically this is the point: we we can't take some random scripture, isolate it and superimpose our opinions on it. All jokes aside, it's heresy. Like, period. If you take a scripture and u strip it of it original meaning and then share your opinion of it with someone, you've almost given someone a gospel with holes in it. It's dangerous.
Can you imagine if someone came to you and told you that scriptures about Jesus's life meant to them that Jesus was just a good person, and not God in full? And they thought that good works would get you into heaven??? The scripture is clear; moralism doesn't get you to heaven. (Titus 3:5) Jesus is God in full (Collossians 1:15-18) This "Doctrine of Opinion"--haha-- would send you straight to hell. Do you see where superimposing your opinions and detaching the original meaning becomes dangerous?
And let's not forget how us Christians like to get all mystical and googoo gahgah when it comes to the Word. You know how it go, like when you wanna hear a "word" from God you just open the bible to a RANDOM part of the bible and read ONE scripture and call it your "word" from God. LOL. Don't feel bad, I'm guilty of it too. And I'm also guilty of that "what this scripture means to me is..." too. We can't do that. We've got to look at the verses before and after. This is an important principle that seems so elementary, but yet, is always missed for some reason.
Solution? When you read the bible be sure that u understand the who, what, when, where and why. At the very least, read the 20 preceding and post verses to get some context. A meaning does exist. And it is very much so RELEVENT to today. Culture and traditions may change, but the human heart and condition doesn't. The bible was put together with a purpose. Each book, each author, each verse had an intent, a purpose. It's the original meaning. Now this doesn't mean we can't make it applicable to our specific circumstances, neither does it mean that God's Word speaks to all of in the same way. Of course God's Word has some meaning within our life context, but again the original message is still present. King Solomon says there is nothing new under the sun (Ecclesiastes 1:9) That's pretty straight forward. Whatever you have gone through, seen or are going though has been done or seen already. I think the bible does a pretty good job of covering these general areas. It covers romance, marriage, relationships, money, faith, persecution, Christian Doctrine, end times ummm...anything that is related to the human experience believe me, it's there. Check out The book of Psalsms, The book of Proverbs, Romans, Collossians, Song of Solomon, Ecclesiastes, ummm...Job, Daniel. They were all written with purpose and inspired by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12-13; 2 Timothy 3:16-17)
So I hope this didn't come out as some random rant with no purpose. I pray that you'll take this info and make some changes if you need to. Below I posted a video that probably explains this topic a lot better than I can. Enjoy!
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