I got a Man yall!! --A Facebook Note by Jay :)

SIKE! Nosies! ;)

So the spirit of writing and transparency decided to take me tonight. Weird. Especially for Facebook. This will be quick! I promise!

So let's get to the point of this note. So lately, I have been talking to one of my friends quite often. Of course like every girl talk, it always relationships. Since, my interest has been "rekindled"--well, not really. I've just been thinking about marriage more because of the convos I’ve been having and all this cliché talk of relationships. Of course this would happen well after I’ve come to the point where the thought never crosses my mind--maybe it's because I'm being distracted by other things or maybe Jesus has really has changed my thinking. (Can I get a AMEN! FREEDOM!)

Truly, I don't want to concentrate too much on relationships, dating, and marriage; they're too much of a headache. I mean, it's just something I don't even want to deal with right now.

Ok, so apart from the fact that I vehemently disdain the thought of a relationship right now--yea, it’s that serious--there are other reasons why I'm just not interested.

#1 I'm not the best me I can be. I have YET to solidify the relationship I have with Christ. The simple answer: I'm not whole, I'm not completely ONE with Christ.

The best me is the “me” who’s married to Christ; who has a solid spiritual foundation. I’m workin’ to be the Proverbs 31, married or NOT!

#2 --> 1 Cor. 7:32-35 (Msg) excerpt "...When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master. Marriage involves you in all the nuts and bolts of domestic life and in wanting to please your spouse, leading to so many more demands on your attention..."

Did you read that the FIRST time...ok just in case you didn't....go read it AGAIN.....

Ok, now that you have re-read it, there's my scriptural defense. lol.

The Word does not lie. It's true, when you're married your attention is divided. Furthermore, your kingdom business has extended (more work). More work? Yes, more work. You have to WORK to SERVE your husband or wife. It really isn’t all peaches n crème. I’m glad I recognize that fact. Oh and let me not forget about the beginning of the excerpt:

“When you're unmarried, you're free to concentrate on simply pleasing the Master”

Man, pleasing Abba is my ultimate desire and if pleasing Him requires that I completely abandon my desire to be married with children, then so let it be!-- Freedom is A-MAZIN’!

Now, by no means am I saying that I am against marriage. God BLESS all of you who are happily married or about to be married. May you be that powerhouse couple that God has called you both to be! I'm just saying that kind of responsibility is not for me right now. I’m ‘bout dat otha kingdom business. :)

For the first time I can say that I am truly enjoying my singleness.


Selah!
**Let those with eyes see and with ears hear**

Is it just me....friends: what do you think?

Lately, I've been really thinking. Thinking about how much people really annoy me. Granted, I annoy people on a daily basis I'm sure, but you know how that goes; you really don't care about your actions, but rather others' actions. Hypocrisy at it's most overt and covert moment simultaneously existing.

Whatever, here's my vent/rant time!

I have lots of "friends", "associates", whatever: people I know and people who know me. To be quite frank, sometimes I can delete some of them out my life and start all over again. Why? Because they say some pretty questionable below-the-belt sort of things. For example, I was talking to one of my "friends" recently. We've been friends since our freshman year in college (2005)--we've known each other for a little while now. You know what this good-for-nothing guy said to me as I was talking about my life issues??--He had the NERVE to say, "Yea, yea Jay, like your problems are worse than everyone elses." When I heard that I was like, "I know this insensitive....I know this boy ain't just try me like that!!"

Later on this week I saw a facebook status from another friend. She said something along the lines of, "not everyone who is WITH you is FOR you" and it got me thinkin'....granted, this has always been my motto for friends and life but it still made me question some of my friendships and how ** I ** feel about them. Am I being real when something good happens to them? Am I bad mouthing them right after I talk to them? Do I really care about this person? Then I thought, what about others? Then I looked at it from another perspective: Are my friend really happy for me when something good happens to me? Are they bad mouthing me when we finish talking? Do they care about me?? Hmmm....

I have another friend she can be very...stuck up...wait a better colloquial term, "acting brand new", lol. In this "stuck upness", lol, she has a tendency to act like she has money, when she really doesn't. Truly if she did, she wouldn't have to take out student loans. If she did, she'd be driving a fully functional car (which she's not)...But I digress.. Back to the story: Before, I didn't notice it until she herself pointed it out, lol. Ironic, right? After a while it started to annoy me and me a my rude self never passes up an opportunity to pass a slick remark her way, lol. Anyway, I was talking to her today; she was talking about having a pricey dinner party, that in my opinion she can't afford, but who am I to metal in someones financial business?? lol. I'm Jay, and imma metal in it anyway :)So anyway I said something slick, something like, "I hope you big ballin'" (Translation: I hope you have the money) and she said something along the lines of "your just jealous because...." her tone was a bit facetious, but her message intended sure got across...surely ya' girl wasn't gonna let that pass and I responded "I'm sorry I don't spend money I don't have like you do ;)" Yes, not exactly the most Christ-like thing to say, but sometimes I just can't help it. The point: It's annoying, and I am I truly her friend? I mean, I'm not jealous--actually I'm nowhere near jealous, I'm more intelligent and more witty--money doesn't define my identity. period. I mean love her to death, if anything were to happen to her there is no doubt in my mind that I'd be balling my poor eyes out. But sometimes I just wonder.

Maybe it's just me. I guess I'm just thinking about all this stuff because I have waay too much time on my hands or not enough time on my hands to form new friendships to distract me from thinking about it.

Well, there's my rant. Uncensored.

~Jay

The God-Sent Brush!

Wow! This brush is A-mazing! I detangled my full head of hair in 15 mins!I got it at my local Sally's Beauty Supply for around $10. At first I was like, I can't pay this much for a BRUSH! But let me tell you, it is one the best investments of my natural hair journey! <3 check it out! you can get it on Amazon.com for between $8-$20.
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Chao!

~Jay

A blog about my hair and other randoms... :)

Ok, so I haven't blogged in a while. Been on my YT-tip (watching youtube). So I was going through one of my bloggers vids on youtube and she kind of inspired me to blog, well, blog more often than I do.

Anyway, let's talk about hair. So, as many of you may know I am an African American with Afro-textered hair--no chemical relaxing. :) I love my hair, BUT I don't know how to manage it, AT ALL. :( I'm thinking of weaving it out for the next few months. The problem is, I'm too lazy to do it and I can't afford to pay anyone else to do it. :( But you know what, it's all good. I've been learning some quick-weaves from the YT. Im just about ready to jump on the bandwagon, lol! Of course using my younger is as the guinea pig :) Yay for little sisters! :) So yea, I think I really like blogging. I really do. I don't know how I feel about people "following" me. Lol, but whatever. Right now this blog is for my enjoyment. :)

Random!

So, here's the deal, I would LOVE to do video blogs; however, I have no camera. Yea, sry. I'm still in the "chee-chee, click, click era" aka disposable cameras. lol. But no worries, I will invest in one as soon as I get this promotion at work OR start working as a Sub-Teacher. :) Yay! Praise Jesus!

haha, my kitten is sitting in my lap right now and she's is totally intrigued by my typing motions lol! She's even trying to type! lololol! Gotta love my kitty. Pix to come! :)

Random 2!

Currently I'm reading a book called "The New World Order" By Pat Robertson. As the title implies it is no surprise that it's about the conspiracy theory. What I like about the book so far is that it looks at the conspiracy theory from a biblical perspective. I'm about 1/3 into in the book, but here's the problem: I can't find the darn book! ugh! I lost it :( Somewhere between work and home. No worries. Today is my clean up day and hopefully, I'll find it! :O).

Well, it's almost 2:30 am. I should have been asleep since 12 am. It's ok though, I blogged therefore I'm happy! :) So yea, I'll try to blog about more things going on in my life; although, my life isn't all that interesting, but whatever. This thing is for me, right? Yea. Awesomeness!

O.K., I'm DONE! :)

Be blessed! :)
P.S. Jesus is awesome!

Gimme Dat

I like this song. It's so hype! Lyrics below! ;)



(AMBA!)

Gimme dat fire (fire)
Gimme dat flame (flame, flame)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Gimme dat (gimme dat)
Absolutely you can gimme dat
If it's mine (gimme dat)
It's good for me (gimme dat)
I want it all

Gimme dat bible
Gimme dat mic
I'll drop Jesus any way so he can make a disciple
Can't surpass Christ there's no takin' his title
A passion for Christ I'll have you prayin' for revival
Gimma my city, yeah
Gimme dat, let's fish
Gospel of peace, yeah
You can give me dat fresh kicks
Gimme dat
Vest with your blessin' Lord I'm desperate
You gave me your life
So I look forward to my exit
I used to be a punk-kid
Use to wanna run with
Dudes dat wanna hunt that
Turned our ones into hundreds
Used to run the blunt to be blunt
I wanted trees just to alter my mind
Now I find out more in Jesus

Used to run and roll mad deep with a street clique
Corner holdin' heat on the low like a secret
God's spirit penetrated my soul on a sneak tip
Took control now I'm in his floor like a leaflet

Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

I know you got riches
I know you got ice
Your life is a big party
You're partyin' all night
You don't mind not knowin' Christ
In your mind dat's alright
You might not get this now
But you're kind of a Saul type

You keep with the trends
Cool's your middle name
On your pants you got a chain
That droops like Lil' Wayne
You're tattooed in a Benz
Maybe you're in a Range
Ladies, you drivin' crazy
Nothin crazier than your frame
(This is a shame)

It's the age and I'm game
To be an agent of change
In an age that's like a page in a flame
Just smoke, just mirrors, just vapor is plain
You see, a Holy God is not one of you favorite things
I was just like you,
But God moved on a fellow
Gave me good news
Dat I could use on the ghetto
Maybe it's you who wants to
U turn to settle
You're dead if you do
I'll tell you it's been settled

Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

So you got platinum?
We got our Lord
If we want, we could ask him
But he's our reward
Gotta be perfect
It can't be three out of four
If you're sick of fallin' short
Then he's got a cure

Gimme dat cure, dat door, dat hero
Gimme dat grace dat never chased the dinero
How much glory should you give your boy? Zero
That would cause beef with the Lamb like a Gyro

Gimme dat day reaches you over shinin'
Truth over rhymin'
Virtue over diamonds
Gimme some change
Sometimes I do need the dough
Gimme some pain
Somethin' -- I do need to grow

Gimme what I won't ask for
Don't gimme what I seek
When i creep, I'm a sheep
Gimme your pasture
Gimme life
Just like you intended
It's like to see you raise the day you ascended

Gimme dat fire
Gimme dat flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

Gimme dat fire, flame
Gimme dat fresh wind
Gimme dat rain
Gimme dat freedom
You can have the chains
Gimme dat God who can gimme all things

Yeah, this is just to let cats know
Don't focus on what you can't have
Get all you can have
We call dat freedom
Dat's the joy of God
And his poeple
In his world
On his terms

SHOUTOUT TO PASTOR E!
Yeah
Gimme dat, gimme dat, gimme dat
I want it all, I want it all
Gimme dat
It's your boy Ambassador

This bible verse means to me that....

This bible means to me that...????? [Crickets..] That what? Really? I'm not trying to be facetious or mean or anything, but I always thought that the books of the bible had one meaning and one meaning only. I'm pretty sure there was a who, what when, where, and why. The author wrote with some intention, to some audience.

This brings me to the topic of this entry. BIBLE STUDY. So, yesterday I was reading one of the blogs I follow by Be like the Bereans (I think that's the name). It was about how we should study the bible. And when we do, we need to understand the Who, What, When, Where and Why of the particular book. Furthermore we should read 20 verses before and after a particular verse to get some sort of context to get the true and original meaning. So basically this is the point: we we can't take some random scripture, isolate it and superimpose our opinions on it. All jokes aside, it's heresy. Like, period. If you take a scripture and u strip it of it original meaning and then share your opinion of it with someone, you've almost given someone a gospel with holes in it. It's dangerous.

Can you imagine if someone came to you and told you that scriptures about Jesus's life meant to them that Jesus was just a good person, and not God in full? And they thought that good works would get you into heaven??? The scripture is clear; moralism doesn't get you to heaven. (Titus 3:5) Jesus is God in full (Collossians 1:15-18) This "Doctrine of Opinion"--haha-- would send you straight to hell. Do you see where superimposing your opinions and detaching the original meaning becomes dangerous?

And let's not forget how us Christians like to get all mystical and googoo gahgah when it comes to the Word. You know how it go, like when you wanna hear a "word" from God you just open the bible to a RANDOM part of the bible and read ONE scripture and call it your "word" from God. LOL. Don't feel bad, I'm guilty of it too. And I'm also guilty of that "what this scripture means to me is..." too. We can't do that. We've got to look at the verses before and after. This is an important principle that seems so elementary, but yet, is always missed for some reason.

Solution? When you read the bible be sure that u understand the who, what, when, where and why. At the very least, read the 20 preceding and post verses to get some context. A meaning does exist. And it is very much so RELEVENT to today. Culture and traditions may change, but the human heart and condition doesn't. The bible was put together with a purpose. Each book, each author, each verse had an intent, a purpose. It's the original meaning. Now this doesn't mean we can't make it applicable to our specific circumstances, neither does it mean that God's Word speaks to all of in the same way. Of course God's Word has some meaning within our life context, but again the original message is still present. King Solomon says there is nothing new under the sun (Ecclesiastes 1:9) That's pretty straight forward. Whatever you have gone through, seen or are going though has been done or seen already. I think the bible does a pretty good job of covering these general areas. It covers romance, marriage, relationships, money, faith, persecution, Christian Doctrine, end times ummm...anything that is related to the human experience believe me, it's there. Check out The book of Psalsms, The book of Proverbs, Romans, Collossians, Song of Solomon, Ecclesiastes, ummm...Job, Daniel. They were all written with purpose and inspired by God. (1 Corinthians 2:12-13; 2 Timothy 3:16-17)

So I hope this didn't come out as some random rant with no purpose. I pray that you'll take this info and make some changes if you need to. Below I posted a video that probably explains this topic a lot better than I can. Enjoy!

I want to change my story

Hello all! :o)

I just had the urge to blog about my life. So, so the last time I spoke (before my devotional about the devil and his worksmen) I talked about how I was doing my own thing, got checked by my mother, confirmed it with a friend (unbeknownst to him of course! All God's handy work!), and started to fast about it. The fasting and praying went well in my opinion, I don't know about the other party; I haven't spoken to him.

This leads me to today's update. I was talking to one of my friends earlier today and I was basically complaining about my life, as usual. Then I said something along the lines of, "Blah, blah, same ol' story. I wish I could change my story". It was simple, yet profound, "I want to change my story". It really got me thinking, "Well, how exactly do I change my story?". I know that I don't have control over what happens in my life, but I do have control over how I view my story. Today? Yes, I complained, but I woke up and I did something. Now, normally, I would wake up and sit on the computer all day without doing anything constructive. No reading, nothing edifying that is, no exersising, no nothing. Today I cleaned. Now, that may not sound significant, but it was for me. It was almost like I was symbolically cleaning and organizing my life. My mind felt so much more free. I'm just praying that it last a while.

Today, I choose to change my story by first directing my focus on my Creator; that is to continue to fast and pray because the battle is not over, I know it! Like I said in my last post, the devil and his workman are not sleeping and are seeking to serperate us from God by any means possible.

Next, meditate on the love letters. God's word constantly reminds us to meditate on His word and write it on the tablets of our hearts so that our way is porperous (Proverbs 3:1-4) . And that, I will do.

The Word also instructs (or examples rather) to be clean before coming to the Lord; we must repent before He answers prayers. It says in Isaiah 59:1-2 Surely the arm of the LORD is not too short to save, nor his ear too dull to hear. But your iniquities have separted your from your God; your sins have hidden his face form you, so that he will not hear. In context, the people Israel (Judah) were rebillious and were going through "troubled times". The profit Isaiah urged them to repent and to keep the Law. From this example, we see that it is our sin and disobidence that keep God from answering our prayers. Think about it, it's sin that kept the people of Israel from finding the promise land; they turned a year long trip into a 40 your expedition! REPENT. Finally, persitant prayer in accordance to His will. 1 John 5:14-15 says "
14This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. 15And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him." If i pray, I want to make sure it is aligned with His will.

So I will continue to repent, fast, pray, and meditate.

What's the point of this entry? Well, many times we complain about our situation, yet, we never make any attempts to change it. It's not all the time that we have control over or circumstance, but we do have control over how we tackle it. If we have a more positive attitude today, we might just have a better tommorrow. Now in order to maintain this positive attitude is a different story. As Christians, Christ is our Rock and our Foundation, He is the froce that gives us peace of mind (in this case positive attitude). Fasting and praying is the quickest way to get in touch with God, but like I said we must have a clean heart before He hears us; we must repent. We also must be persistant. And fianlly we must meditate on His word. Afterall, we need SOMETHING to fight the enemy. :o)

Peace and Love

~Jay