I owe you a life update!

By the way, there's a lot of GOOD things going in my life now (since my May 18, 2011 post). I totally owe you all an update. For right now though, just know that I am still very happy. I've found love and assurity in the direction of my career. To God be the Glory! Love you guys.

Currently Listening to Hot 105 FM, Love Never Fails by Kem.

Love Always,

Ms. Jay

Lessons Learned From My Kitty

“Reoooowww, reeoowwww!!” Oh, the sound of my kitty, affectionately known as “Baby Lion” in my house. I got her about 2 years ago. I was so unhappy with my life. I had no social life and no one to neither confide in nor listen to my issues. So I thought, “Hey, maybe I need a pet or something.”

Lucky for me my cousin was advertising some free kittens on her Facebook page. Totally excited, I immediately shot her a message. Within in the week a swung by her house only to find a whole litter to choose from every last one of the black and white (or all black—like their mommy)!

I distinctly remembered Baby Lion. She was the only one curled up, fast asleep. I chose her because I was actually scared that if I chose any of the awake ones they’d give me a fight and I’d get scratched! Believe it or not, I’m not an animal person at all!

Anyway, I’ve learned soo much from this little cat. One thing I’ve learned: My little cat DOES NOT GIVE UP. Let me tell you something, I’ve never seen such a persistent cat!

Like many home pets, my cat has been programed to shoot to the kitchen at the least little sound heard in hopes to snack a treat. Today was no different. As I sat down to eating my Fettuccine Chicken Alfredo from my local mom and pop shop, here comes Baby Lion, looking at me with her rounded eyes and widen-to-capacity pupils, “Meeeoooo!” It was as if she was saying, “Can I have some too?”. It is the cutest thing in the world to see here. <3

I knew full well that the little cat was not hungry. She was fed prior to me sitting for my feast. What’s was so interesting about this cat is that she did not move until and she got a bite. Today, she sat there until my very bit. Honestly I was too full to finish! Delish it was, btw. Anyway, to reward her for her patience and persistence, a gave her a little piece of my leftover chicken.

And so is the story of my cat. Any time any one of us (family) would sit to eat, Baby Lion comes running, hungry or not hungry…just to get a treat. It’s not all the time she gets something though. In fact, most of the time she doesn't get a morsel, but you can always bank on the fact that she’ll be there waiting!

So what does this teach me? Simple, to never give up. Even when things don’t work out as planned, I still need to be consistent and persistent in my strive, whatever it maybe, just like my Baby Lion does for chicken.

Now, I know what you’re thinking, “That cat just wants to use you for food! She doesn’t know what she’s doing!” Although you might be right, but maybe, just maybe we can learn that if we set aside (just for a moment) all our refined and controlled behavior and go back to our basic need as a human being: physiological needs (food, sex, breathing etc.) and tap into your “Id” if you will (See more here and here) we will be more satisfied with our lives. This is the same basic drive my cat runs off of and you know what, she does whatever it takes to get what she wants. If we do *whatever* it takes to get what we want with no regard to failure, be it personal, professional, or social we’ll get somewhere. J

I leave you with this quote:

“You'll always miss 100% of the shots you don't take”

Do what you gotta do to get where you need to get without regard to failure. Just remember that you have to at least make an attempt at the task and don’t forget to be persistent.

Thanks for checking in guys! Take care. <3

~Ms. Jay

The Blood of Christ

He did not enter by means of blood of goats and claves; but he entered the Most Holy Place once for all by his own blood, thus obtaining eternal redemption. The blood of goats and bulls and the ahes of a heifer sprinkled on those who are ceremonially unclean sanctify them so that they are outwardly clean. How much, then, will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death, so that we may serve the living God! For this reason Christ is the mediator of a new covenant, that those who are called may receive the promised eternal inheritance--now that he has died as a ransom to set them free from the sins committed under the first covenant. --Hebrews <3

HOW MUCH MORE THAN,the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself unblemished to God, cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death, so that we may serve the living God.Thank You Jesus. Amen.

Facebook Status, April 9th

Bless The Lord....

Bless the Lord Oh my soul. I love you Lord more than anything. My deepest desire is to be more like you each and every successive day.

~Ms. Jay

Inspiration...

Here are some some inspirational posts I've posted on my personal Facebook page. These posts help me just as much as the next one. <3

I know what I want in this life the Lord has blessed me with...when I see it and feel it, I know it, within the deepest recesses of my heart. If He Wills that I live to see the day, I WILL get my heart's desire and nothing shy of it... Bank on that! Adversaries get out my way! Dream big and make proper decisions to make it happen.

March 13, 2012 Facebook Status.

Moving back to south Florida has been such a humbling experience for me. I have met some amazing people, both young and old, each having an interesting story. Thus far I've learned that everyone's journey is different; therefore, you should accept, enjoy your own, and stop worrying, your time will come. Even if you're not in the position you'd like to be you still have so much to be thankful for and so much you've learned from your past. Enjoy the ride and encourage the next person :)

March 12, 2012 Facebook Status.

~Ms. Jay

Random Note

It's been a minute since I've updated this thing.

I just want to say that God is awesome. Truly he has called me to be a light to this world. I've realized I am NOTHING without Him. As usual so many things goin' on in my life, lol. Most of it I'm too embarrassed to share. Not only that, I've let it go; it's in the sea of forgetfulness.

Finally Moving On..

It has been 2 years, 5 mnths, 1 wk, and 2 days since I've been back home in Miami. Ever since, I have been extremely unhappy. Going to church wasn't doing anything for me; praying wasn't working for me; going out wasn't working for me...Until now...

I can honestly say that this is the happiest I've been in so long. The ironic part is that nothing about my situation has changed. I still live at home with my mom and dad, I still am next to jobless. I mean I've "found love", but I do not thing that has contributed to my sudden realization.

I had a conversation with one of my best friends and I was telling her that I have given up on trying to be perfect and trying to please my parents. I feel like I have messed up so many times that at this stage there is no point in trying; as long as I can live with myself, and my situation I'm okay.

As far as my spirituality, I will not lie to you, I am not exactly where I should be. One thing though, I've learned to set aside all the legalities. I said to another one of good friends, "You come to Jesus knowing that you are broking and that you are going to fall over and over and over again....not for him to give you a one time happy fix"

All my life I have lived by the rules. As I grow older and wiser, I see that rules were meant to be bent and sometimes even broken. As for my salvation, I still believe that Jesus is Lord, but living by the "don't do this and don't do that" rules are out the window for me. It simply doesn't make sense anymore. When I look at the rest of the world I see some amazing people who are doing some wonderful Christlike things, but do not believe in Jesus; it baffles my mind. Then I look at the person who religiously makes it to church every Sunday but has a heart of dirt and grime....they do nothing for their fellow humans, they're greedy, selfish, and judgemental. I found that, that's what I was turning into. I was this super holy girl, who never went out of line, going by the do this, don't do that; I couldn't keep up. To make matters worse, my heart was full of jealousy, hate, dirt, and grime and on top of that the way I treated people was fake and simply unacceptable.

I've decided if I am going to represent Christ let me show the world that it's not about the do's and the don'ts, but rather the brokenness of humanity. In my opinion that's how it should be. Us "Christians" parade around with our bibles condemning the drunks and fornicators, while our hearts are just gross. We are just as broken as the one who does not know Jesus.

I say all this to say that I have moved on...finally. I am ready for the next chapter of my life. Thank God the drama is over. I am refocused and excited. I will no longer walk in the stuffiness of the modern day "Christian Way", but rather in the fullness of my brokenness. I'm broken and I openly admit that I need Jesus, there's no number of rules I can follow that will change my condition...

Love and reflect...

~Jay