Hey Guys!
Today was rather uneventful. To be honest with you, I pathetically wallowed in my shortcomings, sorrows, and failures. Why? I guess it's because it was one of those days. Currently my vehicle is out of commission and hence my current job. Lucky for me though, my boss isn't a straight-necked, power hungry monster.
For a majority of the day I tried to drown out negative thoughts with idle chatter with a friend via Skype while perusing movie titles on Netflix. I bounce back and forth between Facebook, Twitter and YouTube, eventually becoming mentally drained.
I soon found myself sitting on the edge my bed searching this old discolored royal blue carpet of mine for only Lord knows what. As my thoughts ping ponged its inner prison, my eyes had bucked into my corner of junk which reminded me I had photos that needed to be placed in photo albums eons ago. Ah, ha! I had found another way to escape my thoughts.
At that moment I decided to finally put the photo album together. What an adventure it turned out to be. To be quite honest it was a joy to take a walk down memory lane. I surfed through birthday memories and graduations, impromptu trips and random and rather memorable moments. Some pictures evoked pure bliss while some evoked unwanted feelings of discontentment and disappointment.
Overall, it was a rather animated nostalgic moment. I found myself engulfed in the memories and longing to revisit that season of my life; I have yet to close those chapters of my life..at least, that's what I found.
Sometimes, I wish I wasn't so sensitive and stubborn. If I weren't, I think I would be building fun and exciting memories right as I speak. C'est La Vie. One day I will be happy again, one day I will look back on this blog post and smile.
Praying that I let go of the past, and press forth toward the future. Feeling really defeated today.
~Jay
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